Brain Grilling

I've spent a good amount of time trying to convince myself that your feelings for me were manufactured by you and exaggerated in my own mind. Skewed. And mid-self-debate, I'll remind myself of how insulting that is to you. So I'll hold a lighter up to the thought for as long as possible. Remember that all those times we were on the phone, you sitting on the bathroom floor or somewhere outside, you could have easily been somewhere else. With someone else. That a guy like you would not devote night and day to someone they met once, unless... That I might have actually been as dope of a person as you led on. But soon my fingers start feelin the heat and I blow it out. Thus, rinse and repeat.